Hm.
Seeeecret blog. It's kinda fun. I'll probably give up on it within a couple weeks... but you can at least have this one pathetic little blog entry :)
So, as my Title implies, I guess what I've been thinking about all day is innocence. I dunno, I guess it just seems the more I grow up, the more of my friends i see fall away from innocence. and me too, i guess. Some of my friends who I looked up to; even leaders at times, have completely fallen away from Christ. What example do I look up to now? The people I looked up to are now doing drugs, drinking, cussing, or simply just being complacent about their faith. A lot of these people I've known since middle school or elementary school. The kinds who I would confide in about how boys had cooties, and wholeheartedly they would agree.
Then I see them in a couple years completely giving away their bodies to guys who never cared about them in the first place.
Okay, some of this is just maturity. I'm glad we don't all think guys have cooties now, but still, at what point do we allow ourselves to completely give away our innocence?
And what point do we give our innocence away? Is there a specific point in which you do something and *poof*, there goes your innocence?
I think it's all a matter in the mind and the heart our innocence vanishes. Part of it I think is pride; where we say we can do it all alone and we don't need to depend on anyone. When we look up to the examples in our lives and see what we are supposed to "look up to", and are decieved into thinking that that is what innocence looks like.
Of course the circumstance differs from person to person, and I don't really have a climax to this little rant. (which is why this is my blog! I don't need a resolution. someday I will have one though when I figure it out...) But I guess it is just so discouraging when you see those people.
And in me? Where is my innocence?
hmmm.... yep. that's what I have to say.
On the flip side, I'm not just a confused little discouraged soul. Quite the opposite, actually. God has been speaking to me so much! I'll write about it sometime when it isn't 1:20 a.m.
*Sierra-
Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken. -Isaiah 52:10 (I think? one of my memory verses from another week. yeah)
