Learning.

It is 2:45 a.m. and I am up, pondering God and who He is.

I realized the other night, what am I doing to God? Who do I want Him to be?

I want God to be a friend. I want Him to be here.
But isn't there more to God than just a friend?

Is His friendship but a single attribute which makes Him God?

Just because I don't see this one attribute of Himself, I don't worship with my whole heart. Isn't His Holiness alone enough to worship?

God is much, much more than what I want Him to be right now.

I know God is faithful. I know He is Holy and unchangeable and has transformed my life. Is that not enough to worship?

My friend Jared said something interesting the other day. He said maybe God will take away His friendship attribute for awhile because we haven't fully embraced His Holiness.

I'm thinking out loud here- But maybe it's in a place of realization of how Holy He is that He will speak to me. When I am in admiration, not expecting anything from God but to be admired, isn't that often where we hear that familiar voice?