Thoughts + song.

Life has been so good.

God has been confirming these things over and over again that I need to let go. I feel like a week ago was the first time in 5 months I've ever been confident in his voice, speaking to me something very specific. And it was to let something go. Haha. It seems like even though everything should be falling apart, everything is completely falling together, because I have seen over and over again my small prayers answered these couple days. It's been crazy. I'll write about that later...
But here's a song I wrote today about what I've been struggling with the last few months and what I felt was God's reply. For so long I had been telling him, "God. I can't understand you." And then it clicked it me that being unfathomable is what makes God, God. And although it sucks sometimes, it makes me want Him all the more. So here it is. (I wish I could just have a video but my microphone isn't working. Sorry!)


Incomprehensible

How long has it been
My distant friend
Since I’ve heard your voice?

Is it in the wind?
Or in the rain?
Just a few words would suffice.

I’m tired of hearing
But not really knowing
Who you are.

I want to know who you are.

I know you’re Alpha, Omega, Messiah, Redeemer,
But Father, Lover, giver of good things.
I don’t understand.
I know you’re fully powerful, omniscient and wise
But for your Holiness to gaze into my eyes
And say I love you
I don’t understand.

Now the rain’s coming in
And I can’t pretend
I’m not lonely

Have you built a disguise
As a test for my life?
Or are you still with me?

I want to behold
And really know
That you love me

God, do you love me?

And you say to me:
I’m incomprehensible.
Unfathomable
Beyond your understanding
I’ve been nearer
And so much clearer than your box has put me in.
And I love you, want to know you,
But first you’ve got to know to give up your control
So that you’ll know

That I’m Alpha, Omega, Messiah, Redeemer
And Father, Lover, Giver of all good things.
Your life is in my hands
And I’m fully powerful, omniscient and wise
My holiness longs to gaze in your eyes.
And proclaim my Bride as mine.

I love you.