Before you watch- Be aware I was in a very weird mood. I just got out of the shower and had no makeup on. With that being said, judge me how you want. I have no shame. ;)
Las Adventuras de Taco Bell:
Monday, February 28, 2011
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Back to myspace days!
These surveys remind me of myspace... but I enjoy reading them. I know a lot of people who don't so I won't be offended if you don't read it. It's 1:30 a.m. and I had to much caffeine before sleep...
Promise you won't lie?
Juro.
Was the person you last texted single?
Yep! All the single ladies, all the single ladies.
Do you get jealous easily?
Not really- not about small things.
Are you wasting your time on the person you like?
Well, survey, wouldn't we all like to know? Tell me my future, and I'll let you know. ;)
What are you currently waiting for?
Waiting to graduate and get on with life, waiting for the caffeine to wear off so I can sleep, waiting to talk to Sierra.
Do you think more about the past, present, or future?
Hm. I'd like to think I think about them an even amount, but I think it's easiest for most people to think in the present, including myself.
Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
Of course! Anyone want to join me? Then I wouldn't be filling out lame surveys. ;)
Honestly, did you really love the last person you said I love you too?
Honestly, no. It was a co-worker of mine.
Is anything wrong with your eyes?
I just went to the eye doctor today and got a new prescription- it's like seeing the world for the first time! So, without contacts, yes.
Who were the last people you saw besides from family?
My coworkers.
Do you have nice eyes?
I suppose. I think they're pretty average, but I like 'em.
Have you ever received a love letter more than a page long?
Typed or handwritten? ;) Yes.
If something was wrong, who is the first girl you would go to?
Melissa.
Who's thinking about you right now?
Stop asking these questions I don't know. The world, for the most part, is asleep.
Is this year the best year of your life?
I don't know yet, it's only February. But in terms of school years, yes.
Which of your friends lives closest to you?
Ellyn or Tyler.
How do you feel about a Diet Dr Pepper?
I don't like it.
Do you ever work out?
I do indeed.
Do you go to the tanning bed on a regular basis?
Nope. I should though- I'm reaching albino complexion.
Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn't?
Yeah, dreams seem very real sometimes!
Does your bedroom need cleaning?
I just cleaned today, so no.
July 4th or St. Patrick's Day?
Fourth of July!
Would you rather take a relationship really slow or really fast?
Really slow.
Do you ever hang out with someone of the opposite sex?
Really? Yes, hanging out with only girls would drive me crazy.
Are you comfortable with your height?
Yes, I love it.
Do you act differently around the person you like?
I have no idea. I don't think so.
Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
I do.
Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
More than one, which is a blessing in itself.
Do you like thunderstorms?
Oh yes.
How fast does your mood change?
Depends on the day and the time of month. ;)
Are there things that can't be joked about with you?
Yeah, there are some things.
What do you always take with you?
Phone, keys, purse.
When is your birthday?
July 7th.
Anything on your walls?
More than you can imagine. Not really, you can imagine it. Just a lot of random stuff.
What do you bite more, your tongue, lip, or cheek?
Lip.
Is there something that you want to tell someone but can't?
Not really. I took John Mayer's deep lyrics to heart: say what you need to say. ;)
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months or more?
Definitely. I think I was hard-wired for those kind of relationships, haha.
Do you crack your knuckles?
Definitely not.
Do you feel comfortable getting up and giving speeches?
Depends on the crowd, but for the most part I am.
Would you ever swim with sharks?
I would, I think.
Does anyone know your passwords besides you?
Yeppers.
What would you do if you found out the person you liked had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
What any normal person would do, be sad about that.
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Dr. Pepper.
I bet you miss somebody right now...?
I do indeed!
Do you have a box where you keep all your important things?
Yep. A few, actually.
How many times have you dyed your hair?
Once for the Thorn.
Would you ever date anyone your parents disapproved of?
I would respect their opinion, but I can make my own decisions and would if it came down to it.
Who introduced you to your boyfriend or girlfriend?
N/A.
If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
Well, for a few days and then probably not.
Are you afraid of shots?
Nope.
Is there someone you can tell anything to?
Yes, a couple people.
Do you lead people on ever?
*sigh* mhm.
At this moment in time if you HAD to have someone's name tattooed on you who's would it be?
Jesus. I feel like people would assume the person whom I tattooed on my body died and then I'd have to explain that they weren't and it would just be awkward. Jesus is much more understandable.
How old will you be in 17 months?
Almost 19.
Has anyone called you perfect before?
I don't recall anyone who has...?
Do your best friends’ parents tend to like you?
Yes.
What’s your all-time favorite ROMANCE movie?
A Walk to Remember.
TV channels you watch?
I don't know, I like TLC.
Are any of your friends taller than you?
This is a stupid question and I'm refusing to answer it. There, stuck it to the man.
Do you prefer the ocean or a pool?
Ocean.
What’s your favorite part of the song that you’re listening to?
"We'll fall just like stars being hung by only string, everything, everything here is gone."
Ever cried your heart out?
Metaphorically I'm assuming- and I have a couple times.
Are you the same person you were in 2009?
No.
Do you make good grades?
Yes.
Is there a difference between love and IN love?
Definitely.
Have you ever been on a motorcycle?
Nope, I've always wanted to, though.
Does it bother you when someone says they will call you and they don't?
Very much so.
What is the main ringtone on your cell?
I don't know! I always have it on vibrate.
Do you speak any other language other than English?
Espanol.
Do you think you were raised well?
I do, definitely.
Could you name all 50 states and point to them on a map?
Yes.
Are you someone's best friend?
Yes.
Where was the last place you were when you got sick?
At my house.
Have you ever smuggled something into America?
Haha, yeah. When I came back from Uganda I had this machete I bought for my brother I had to hide.
What's your favorite super-hero?
I am partial to Spiderman.
Can you say the alphabet backwards?
No.
Pen or pencil?
Pen.
Ever had an 11:11 wish come true?
I don't remember.
Do you get bad headaches?
Not really.
What's worse: liars or cheaters?
I think they often go hand and hand.
Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
I'm not sure.
Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
Yes, I don't want my boyfriend to smoke.
What's usually colder, your hands or your feet?
Feet.
Do you like competition?
For the most part.
Do you think two people can last forever?
Sure do- if by forever you mean death.
Do you consider yourself lucky?
I consider myself fortunate, not so much lucky.
Is there someone that cares about you more than themselves?
I don't know, I think that's pretty hard for anyone to do.
Who was the ugliest person you saw today?
I don't remember.
Has a song ever made you cry?
Yes.
Is the world crumbling to pieces?
Definitely not.
How many states in the U.S. have you been to?
somewhere around 5. I'm not counting states I've passed through.
Where did you grow up?
Colorado
Is your handwriting large, tiny, or pretty normal?
Moderately small-normal.
Will you be in a relationship next month?
I don't think so.
When your phone rings what do you say?
Depends! With Melissa it's "Hey Melly or Hey sexy", with Sierra it's "My darling!" With Amy it's "Baby!" ... I see a trend here... With normal people it's just Hello? ;)
Has anyone ever said they wanted to marry you?
Not that I recall.
Have you ever been a gymnast or a cheerleader?
Gymnast for a short time.
Is your birthday on a holiday?
Nope, it's close though.
Do you always answer your phone?
No.
Who was the last person you had a sleepover with?
Melissa.
Are you ticklish?
I'm not! People end up hurting me more by there pokes and it's awkward for them because I don't like being touched as it is and then combining that with not laughing... It's just a disappointing experience for everyone.
What is your biggest regret?
Not owning a dog. ;) Thanks Marcel.
It worked, I'm tired and I'm going to bed. Good night!
Promise you won't lie?
Juro.
Was the person you last texted single?
Yep! All the single ladies, all the single ladies.
Do you get jealous easily?
Not really- not about small things.
Are you wasting your time on the person you like?
Well, survey, wouldn't we all like to know? Tell me my future, and I'll let you know. ;)
What are you currently waiting for?
Waiting to graduate and get on with life, waiting for the caffeine to wear off so I can sleep, waiting to talk to Sierra.
Do you think more about the past, present, or future?
Hm. I'd like to think I think about them an even amount, but I think it's easiest for most people to think in the present, including myself.
Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
Of course! Anyone want to join me? Then I wouldn't be filling out lame surveys. ;)
Honestly, did you really love the last person you said I love you too?
Honestly, no. It was a co-worker of mine.
Is anything wrong with your eyes?
I just went to the eye doctor today and got a new prescription- it's like seeing the world for the first time! So, without contacts, yes.
Who were the last people you saw besides from family?
My coworkers.
Do you have nice eyes?
I suppose. I think they're pretty average, but I like 'em.
Have you ever received a love letter more than a page long?
Typed or handwritten? ;) Yes.
If something was wrong, who is the first girl you would go to?
Melissa.
Who's thinking about you right now?
Stop asking these questions I don't know. The world, for the most part, is asleep.
Is this year the best year of your life?
I don't know yet, it's only February. But in terms of school years, yes.
Which of your friends lives closest to you?
Ellyn or Tyler.
How do you feel about a Diet Dr Pepper?
I don't like it.
Do you ever work out?
I do indeed.
Do you go to the tanning bed on a regular basis?
Nope. I should though- I'm reaching albino complexion.
Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn't?
Yeah, dreams seem very real sometimes!
Does your bedroom need cleaning?
I just cleaned today, so no.
July 4th or St. Patrick's Day?
Fourth of July!
Would you rather take a relationship really slow or really fast?
Really slow.
Do you ever hang out with someone of the opposite sex?
Really? Yes, hanging out with only girls would drive me crazy.
Are you comfortable with your height?
Yes, I love it.
Do you act differently around the person you like?
I have no idea. I don't think so.
Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
I do.
Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
More than one, which is a blessing in itself.
Do you like thunderstorms?
Oh yes.
How fast does your mood change?
Depends on the day and the time of month. ;)
Are there things that can't be joked about with you?
Yeah, there are some things.
What do you always take with you?
Phone, keys, purse.
When is your birthday?
July 7th.
Anything on your walls?
More than you can imagine. Not really, you can imagine it. Just a lot of random stuff.
What do you bite more, your tongue, lip, or cheek?
Lip.
Is there something that you want to tell someone but can't?
Not really. I took John Mayer's deep lyrics to heart: say what you need to say. ;)
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months or more?
Definitely. I think I was hard-wired for those kind of relationships, haha.
Do you crack your knuckles?
Definitely not.
Do you feel comfortable getting up and giving speeches?
Depends on the crowd, but for the most part I am.
Would you ever swim with sharks?
I would, I think.
Does anyone know your passwords besides you?
Yeppers.
What would you do if you found out the person you liked had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
What any normal person would do, be sad about that.
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Dr. Pepper.
I bet you miss somebody right now...?
I do indeed!
Do you have a box where you keep all your important things?
Yep. A few, actually.
How many times have you dyed your hair?
Once for the Thorn.
Would you ever date anyone your parents disapproved of?
I would respect their opinion, but I can make my own decisions and would if it came down to it.
Who introduced you to your boyfriend or girlfriend?
N/A.
If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
Well, for a few days and then probably not.
Are you afraid of shots?
Nope.
Is there someone you can tell anything to?
Yes, a couple people.
Do you lead people on ever?
*sigh* mhm.
At this moment in time if you HAD to have someone's name tattooed on you who's would it be?
Jesus. I feel like people would assume the person whom I tattooed on my body died and then I'd have to explain that they weren't and it would just be awkward. Jesus is much more understandable.
How old will you be in 17 months?
Almost 19.
Has anyone called you perfect before?
I don't recall anyone who has...?
Do your best friends’ parents tend to like you?
Yes.
What’s your all-time favorite ROMANCE movie?
A Walk to Remember.
TV channels you watch?
I don't know, I like TLC.
Are any of your friends taller than you?
This is a stupid question and I'm refusing to answer it. There, stuck it to the man.
Do you prefer the ocean or a pool?
Ocean.
What’s your favorite part of the song that you’re listening to?
"We'll fall just like stars being hung by only string, everything, everything here is gone."
Ever cried your heart out?
Metaphorically I'm assuming- and I have a couple times.
Are you the same person you were in 2009?
No.
Do you make good grades?
Yes.
Is there a difference between love and IN love?
Definitely.
Have you ever been on a motorcycle?
Nope, I've always wanted to, though.
Does it bother you when someone says they will call you and they don't?
Very much so.
What is the main ringtone on your cell?
I don't know! I always have it on vibrate.
Do you speak any other language other than English?
Espanol.
Do you think you were raised well?
I do, definitely.
Could you name all 50 states and point to them on a map?
Yes.
Are you someone's best friend?
Yes.
Where was the last place you were when you got sick?
At my house.
Have you ever smuggled something into America?
Haha, yeah. When I came back from Uganda I had this machete I bought for my brother I had to hide.
What's your favorite super-hero?
I am partial to Spiderman.
Can you say the alphabet backwards?
No.
Pen or pencil?
Pen.
Ever had an 11:11 wish come true?
I don't remember.
Do you get bad headaches?
Not really.
What's worse: liars or cheaters?
I think they often go hand and hand.
Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
I'm not sure.
Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
Yes, I don't want my boyfriend to smoke.
What's usually colder, your hands or your feet?
Feet.
Do you like competition?
For the most part.
Do you think two people can last forever?
Sure do- if by forever you mean death.
Do you consider yourself lucky?
I consider myself fortunate, not so much lucky.
Is there someone that cares about you more than themselves?
I don't know, I think that's pretty hard for anyone to do.
Who was the ugliest person you saw today?
I don't remember.
Has a song ever made you cry?
Yes.
Is the world crumbling to pieces?
Definitely not.
How many states in the U.S. have you been to?
somewhere around 5. I'm not counting states I've passed through.
Where did you grow up?
Colorado
Is your handwriting large, tiny, or pretty normal?
Moderately small-normal.
Will you be in a relationship next month?
I don't think so.
When your phone rings what do you say?
Depends! With Melissa it's "Hey Melly or Hey sexy", with Sierra it's "My darling!" With Amy it's "Baby!" ... I see a trend here... With normal people it's just Hello? ;)
Has anyone ever said they wanted to marry you?
Not that I recall.
Have you ever been a gymnast or a cheerleader?
Gymnast for a short time.
Is your birthday on a holiday?
Nope, it's close though.
Do you always answer your phone?
No.
Who was the last person you had a sleepover with?
Melissa.
Are you ticklish?
I'm not! People end up hurting me more by there pokes and it's awkward for them because I don't like being touched as it is and then combining that with not laughing... It's just a disappointing experience for everyone.
What is your biggest regret?
Not owning a dog. ;) Thanks Marcel.
It worked, I'm tired and I'm going to bed. Good night!
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Vlog 2
On this episode of vlog-ing I discuss my life to date including, and actually limited to the happenings of my life, what I've been learning and shaving my legs.
"Give me ambiguity or give me something else."
Good Night!
"Give me ambiguity or give me something else."
Good Night!
Friday, February 11, 2011
Chocolate-covered ants and V-day.
Sinpunto cuenta del dia:
I tricked my friend into eating a chocolate-covered ant today.
I EFE (Elementary Field Education) for a Middle School Spanish teacher and they are doing a unit on chocolate (the origin of it and what not). They have to sample nearly 20 kinds of chocolate. One of them was chocolate covered ants. It looks like a white chocolate york patty, sort of. So you can't see the ants.
I came into choir and told Alyssa that I just didn't like plain chocolate (which is true) and I wanted to know if she wanted it. She popped it in her mouth and started chewing and then looked at me,
"Sierra, why is my chocolate crunchy?"
And I smiled and said, "Would you believe me if I told you it has little crispy flakes in it? Like a crunch bar?"
She knows me too well.
Her countenance completely changed and she walked over to the trash can and spit it out. And then hit me multiple times- completely uncalled for if I do say so myself. It really wasn't that bad, and it did taste similar to a crunch bar, so I didn't really lie. ;) Jokes.
I'm hanging out at It's a Grind (por supuesto) after school before jazz choir listening to Sunday Morning by Maroon 5.
Songs I've been liking due to Valentines Day:
I'm in love with you- Joy Williams
Marry Me- Train.
both of these songs are very sweet.
And both, of course, remind me of Sierra Laird.
No homo.
I am stoked for this Valentines Day. Well, the day after V-day. I have to work on the actual day, but the day after Sierra and I are (hopefully) going to Denver to have a perfect romantic getaway.
I figure, girls never get to plan dates. Which is not a bad thing, but sometimes we have these ideas such as, "It would be cute if..." but it never comes to actually happening because girls just don't plan dates. Sierra and I had this genius idea of going on a Valentines date and planning something romantic for each other. And we figure we can get away with pretty much anything under the banner of "no homo" (thank you Tyler Hill) so I am stoked.
However, to solve the competition between you two, the answer is simple.
Ryan is my Valentine. He has the title: he won it fair and square. On Valentines Day, he will be my Valentine.
But, my heart belongs to Sierra. It's no secret she is my heart's Valentine. Sorry, Ryan.
I'm hoping this Valentine's Day will be good. They're always kind of a hit-or-miss. I'll start liking them when I'm in a serious relationship or married, I'm sure, but it always is just a sad day when you have no one or are getting over someone else. The great thing is though, it's only a day- and Feburary 15th is only 24 hours away. ;)
Prince Charming's out there: I beckon you to all the available ladies for Valentines Day. A horse is preferable, but not required. Same with muscles, money, (attractive) facial hair, and a stunning personality. Sierra Laird, Elisabeth, Kandilyn and I all need one, so please- assuage our love-less day. ;)
Nah, jokes. For me, anyway. I'm okay with singleness, I have no business being in a relationship for awhile.
*Ack* Choking on my tea *Cough*
Conpunto cita del dia:
"We rarely change until our pain exceeds the fear of change." -Rick Warren.
"If men had postponed the search for knowledge and beauty until they were secure, the search never would have begun." -C.S. Lewis
I really like those.
Homework time and then Mill. :)
Oh, and let me know if any of you actually looked up the spanish. ;)
I tricked my friend into eating a chocolate-covered ant today.
I EFE (Elementary Field Education) for a Middle School Spanish teacher and they are doing a unit on chocolate (the origin of it and what not). They have to sample nearly 20 kinds of chocolate. One of them was chocolate covered ants. It looks like a white chocolate york patty, sort of. So you can't see the ants.
I came into choir and told Alyssa that I just didn't like plain chocolate (which is true) and I wanted to know if she wanted it. She popped it in her mouth and started chewing and then looked at me,
"Sierra, why is my chocolate crunchy?"
And I smiled and said, "Would you believe me if I told you it has little crispy flakes in it? Like a crunch bar?"
She knows me too well.
Her countenance completely changed and she walked over to the trash can and spit it out. And then hit me multiple times- completely uncalled for if I do say so myself. It really wasn't that bad, and it did taste similar to a crunch bar, so I didn't really lie. ;) Jokes.
I'm hanging out at It's a Grind (por supuesto) after school before jazz choir listening to Sunday Morning by Maroon 5.
Songs I've been liking due to Valentines Day:
I'm in love with you- Joy Williams
Marry Me- Train.
both of these songs are very sweet.
And both, of course, remind me of Sierra Laird.
No homo.
I am stoked for this Valentines Day. Well, the day after V-day. I have to work on the actual day, but the day after Sierra and I are (hopefully) going to Denver to have a perfect romantic getaway.
I figure, girls never get to plan dates. Which is not a bad thing, but sometimes we have these ideas such as, "It would be cute if..." but it never comes to actually happening because girls just don't plan dates. Sierra and I had this genius idea of going on a Valentines date and planning something romantic for each other. And we figure we can get away with pretty much anything under the banner of "no homo" (thank you Tyler Hill) so I am stoked.
However, to solve the competition between you two, the answer is simple.
Ryan is my Valentine. He has the title: he won it fair and square. On Valentines Day, he will be my Valentine.
But, my heart belongs to Sierra. It's no secret she is my heart's Valentine. Sorry, Ryan.
I'm hoping this Valentine's Day will be good. They're always kind of a hit-or-miss. I'll start liking them when I'm in a serious relationship or married, I'm sure, but it always is just a sad day when you have no one or are getting over someone else. The great thing is though, it's only a day- and Feburary 15th is only 24 hours away. ;)
Prince Charming's out there: I beckon you to all the available ladies for Valentines Day. A horse is preferable, but not required. Same with muscles, money, (attractive) facial hair, and a stunning personality. Sierra Laird, Elisabeth, Kandilyn and I all need one, so please- assuage our love-less day. ;)
Nah, jokes. For me, anyway. I'm okay with singleness, I have no business being in a relationship for awhile.
*Ack* Choking on my tea *Cough*
Conpunto cita del dia:
"We rarely change until our pain exceeds the fear of change." -Rick Warren.
"If men had postponed the search for knowledge and beauty until they were secure, the search never would have begun." -C.S. Lewis
I really like those.
Homework time and then Mill. :)
Oh, and let me know if any of you actually looked up the spanish. ;)
Monday, February 7, 2011
Two world's: God's and mine.
Rachel posted this on her blog today:
"Suppose there was a king who loved a humble maiden. The king was like no other king. No one dared breathe a word against him, for he had the strength to crush all opponents. And yet this mighty king was melted by love for a humble maiden. How could he declare his love for her? In an odd sort of way, his kingliness tied his hands. If he brought her to the palace and crowned her head with jewels and clothed her body in royal robes, she would surely not resist-no one dared resist him. But would she love him?
She would say she loved him, of course, but would she truly? Or would she live with him in fear, nursing a private grief for the life she had left behind? Would she be happy at his side? How could he know? If he rode to her forest cottage in his royal carriage, with an armed escort waving bright banners, that too would overwhelm her. He did not want a cringing subject. He wanted a lover, an equal. He wanted her to forget that he was a king and she a humble maiden and to let shared love cross the gulf between them. For it is only in love that the unequal can be made equal. (as quoted in Disappointment with God )
The king clothes himself as a beggar and renounces his throne in order to win her hand. The Incarnation, the life and the death of Jesus, answers once and for all the question, “What is God’s heart toward me?” This is why Paul says in Romans 5, “Look here, at the Cross. Here is the demonstration of God’s heart. At the point of our deepest betrayal, when we had run our farthest from him and gotten so lost in the woods we could never find our way home, God came and died to rescue us.”
I had to read it a few times because it resonated within me. I really like the way this is illustrated. Especially the bit about, "Would she live with him in fear, nursing a private grief for the life she had left behind?"
How many times do we do this with God?
There are so many times we possess a "God world" and then "my world" and the two intersect at church and in prayer times and even then, once you're done, you know you're back in "your world."
It's as though we're scared to actually give up our world, because we would be sad for leaving it. We would be upset for giving up the ability to control the outcome of something, and the ability to control at all. We like our world; cherish it, even, and let God come in just as we want it to.
God's world is invited when we're sad, when we have a decision we need to make, when we want to be angry at someone... Yes, God's the man. It's so easy, then, to say: "God, let your Kingdom come, let your will be done." Especially when we want a certain outcome; because once it happens, we can go back to our world and embrace it with a certain familiarity.
Do we cherish our world too much for God's kingdom to actually come? Are those words empty when it comes to decisions?
Well, if you're not like that, then I'm talking to myself because I cherish my world sometimes. Okay, let's be honest, I embrace my world a lot.
Jesus came to bridge the gap between His world and ours. As if to show us, "I came to this world so you might dwell in mine."
"Of course she would say she loved him, of course, but would she truly?"
...I'm working on that. I want to.
"Suppose there was a king who loved a humble maiden. The king was like no other king. No one dared breathe a word against him, for he had the strength to crush all opponents. And yet this mighty king was melted by love for a humble maiden. How could he declare his love for her? In an odd sort of way, his kingliness tied his hands. If he brought her to the palace and crowned her head with jewels and clothed her body in royal robes, she would surely not resist-no one dared resist him. But would she love him?
She would say she loved him, of course, but would she truly? Or would she live with him in fear, nursing a private grief for the life she had left behind? Would she be happy at his side? How could he know? If he rode to her forest cottage in his royal carriage, with an armed escort waving bright banners, that too would overwhelm her. He did not want a cringing subject. He wanted a lover, an equal. He wanted her to forget that he was a king and she a humble maiden and to let shared love cross the gulf between them. For it is only in love that the unequal can be made equal. (as quoted in Disappointment with God )
The king clothes himself as a beggar and renounces his throne in order to win her hand. The Incarnation, the life and the death of Jesus, answers once and for all the question, “What is God’s heart toward me?” This is why Paul says in Romans 5, “Look here, at the Cross. Here is the demonstration of God’s heart. At the point of our deepest betrayal, when we had run our farthest from him and gotten so lost in the woods we could never find our way home, God came and died to rescue us.”
I had to read it a few times because it resonated within me. I really like the way this is illustrated. Especially the bit about, "Would she live with him in fear, nursing a private grief for the life she had left behind?"
How many times do we do this with God?
There are so many times we possess a "God world" and then "my world" and the two intersect at church and in prayer times and even then, once you're done, you know you're back in "your world."
It's as though we're scared to actually give up our world, because we would be sad for leaving it. We would be upset for giving up the ability to control the outcome of something, and the ability to control at all. We like our world; cherish it, even, and let God come in just as we want it to.
God's world is invited when we're sad, when we have a decision we need to make, when we want to be angry at someone... Yes, God's the man. It's so easy, then, to say: "God, let your Kingdom come, let your will be done." Especially when we want a certain outcome; because once it happens, we can go back to our world and embrace it with a certain familiarity.
Do we cherish our world too much for God's kingdom to actually come? Are those words empty when it comes to decisions?
Well, if you're not like that, then I'm talking to myself because I cherish my world sometimes. Okay, let's be honest, I embrace my world a lot.
Jesus came to bridge the gap between His world and ours. As if to show us, "I came to this world so you might dwell in mine."
"Of course she would say she loved him, of course, but would she truly?"
...I'm working on that. I want to.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Vlog 1 !
In this episode of Vlog-ing I talk about my condensed version of my college "situation." I realize most high school seniors have a similar situation, so I'm not freaking out or overly stressed. I do have to make a decision soon though, so these are the things I've been thinking about.
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