What an Interesting Day...

I have been thinking about a lot today, It's been quite the contemplative Tuesday.

There was a lot of ups and downs today. I had really good encouragement in the afternoon as well as a really awkward and dramatic situation at night...

Today has been the first time I've been even the slightest bit nervous for college.
I am so happy with the friends I've established pre-college, because I know they will last in college and I will have people to come home to. But these people know me, really know me, and I haven't had to make new friends for awhile because I've been content with the few who are around me.

I think sometimes I shove people away because I don't want superficial friendships. But I'm realizing how little tact I have, and how when it's important to establish a good relationship I can be more hurtful than helpful even if I'm "just being myself."

I surround myself with pretty aggressive people who aren't offended when I jump right out and say things out of the blue. But doing that with strangers is not the best approach. Sometimes small talk is needed and necessary to get to the point where I can say things and they can take it constructively and not offensively. They don't know I mean well and have the best intentions, because they don't know me at all. After awhile of having the same friends, I guess it became easy to treat everyone the same.

I told Sierra the other night I admired this attribute in her- she has incredible tact to analyze a situation and see what is called for in that particular situation.

I'm not going to lie, I'm nervous about making friends at ORU. Square one. New slate for me. I'm excited for that fresh slate, but nervous about what that actually entails. I'm sure I'll make good friends, and I'm sure I'll be able to be myself around them. And if all else fails, I'll have Rachel who can see through my tactless comments and faults and see my intentions. Yay friends.

22 more days. 3 weeks. Wow.

P.S. I got a credit card today, I'm a big kid now.
Good Night world, I'll see you tomorrow with all new adventures.

Vlog 6!

WHAT'S UP.

Jon Foreman is the man.

http://guidemeinyourtruth.tumblr.com/post/6670704756/jon-foreman-when-asked-if-switchfoot-is-a-christian

I am 18 today.
Maybe I should go buy a baby bullet from the TV just because I can.
Also, I share my birthday with sliced bread. It is 84 years old.
What a great day to be born! I'm looking forward to the next year, a lot will be changing for me. I am so excited for where God will be leading.